Mover, shaker, and troublemaker..

I haven't been able to access mindsay FOREVER and half a year it seems.  For some reason, yours truly was "forbidden"!

I have a new mac.  Very sexy.

Also, as soon as I copy and paste all my entries from mindsay I will be moving on.  Think of it as virtual packing, and I am one serious virtual pack-rat.

Where to from here?  Maybe one of those blogs that recycles links from five other blogs (they don't call it the "web" for nuthin).  More Top 5 lists perhaps.  Recipes.  Opinions.  Re-posting a lot form here, but cutting out a lot of the personal pointless stuff.

We should totally have some kind of going away party.   

We had to put Goota down tonight.

Incidentally, I don't think I am long for mindsay. Not planning on leaving anytime soon, but I don't reckon I'll be writing here next year. Dunno if I'll move operations to somewhere else. Just getting that "time for something else" feeling.

One of my best friends is dying.  My puppy. 

And I think she knows it.

Wierd and kind of cool...This baby has two faces

http://www.newser.com/story/23199.html

I was looking at an ad for coastal property in NSW, and I thought to myself "no wonder it's going cheap, in 20years it'll be under the ocean". I know there is a lot of talk, and increasing action, I know I have more than my ammount of hippie tendancies...but the state of the environment does worry me. More than worry, it really makes me upset sometimes. Oh well, I know where my charity will be going.

My new iPod has recently broken down and I haven't had time to sort it out. I use my iPod when I go to uni, which is a two hour commute both ways. I remember why I originally bought iPod - John Laws. He is one of those biggots that somehow manages to get his own radio show so the rest of biggoted Australia can listen to him (it's funny how these guys always pop up on radio). For some reason bus drivers love him.
But there is another reason I plug in on public transport. The conversations. Most people talk quietly or don't talk at all, but there is always those two or more people who get on the bus and just dribble out crap. Yesterday it was some guy talking about his meth dealer. Today it was two 17yr old massive boof heads, talking about how they go around fighting everyone. "Yeah gonna go to the gymn tonight...fucken this fucken that...fucken gonna down that gay cunt, lets bash him....Is he a good fighter but?...fuck fuck fuck cunt fuck."
URRRRRRR! I don't care if their life consists of beefing up and then fighting each other, why do they have to let the world know and with using so many "cunts"? Is that the only swear word you know? I hope you realize your hair looks like a mullet that had a few too many volts go through it. And you know what, I bet there are so many empty headed girls just swooning after these guys.

under pressure and all that. But I am getting a little sick of always thinking of time as running out. I don't know how likely that will be depending on what kind of work I do decide to do, but I think I would like in the future to look at a calendar, watch etc. and think of my time as open.

What would happen if I sent in the names "Godzilla" and "Tokyo" to those stupid SMS mobile love calculators???

 

Everyone was telling me before I left that I would really miss Japan. That hasn't happened. I miss people and I miss things about Japan, but I am not terribly missing the easy lifestyle as much as everyone lead me to believe I would. The funny thing is actually, that I am not enjoying my Japanese classes. In fact, at the the moment they are my least favourite classes.
I don't understand how after a year of living in Japan my Japanese is so behind everyone elses (bar the Korean guy in my class who says nothing). I can't go through a single sentence in our texts without using my dictionary. I can't even get all the reading done in time for class. I am dreading the oral interview. It takes me so long to go through the readings that I just don't want to do it. It's my major.
I know I am probably stressing more than needed right now. It's my final year. It's not that long. The teacher is nice. けど、日本語勉強をやる気が全然ない。全然上達している感じしてない。頭いたい。

Surprising yes. But not something I have given serious thought to. I can hear a lot of of women thinking "well, niether have I so, what's your point?"
Just reading for uni as I do, and thinking about my relationship. Now don't think I am jumping the gun here. I am thinking in a more general sense about me and my future partner, whoever she may be. But one thing is fairly settled. It sure as hell won't be a man. The absence of a husband in my future hasn't really bothered me, and it still doesn't. But none the less it got me thinking. When I want to make a serious cominment to another woman and there is no traditonal bread winner, well it kind of makes her security (and mine too) a little less, well, secure. I'm not saying two women can't financially provide for themselves and a family. It's just something to keep in mind. I may have to provide as well as a full time working man might have to.
Physical strength is another thing. A wife might expect her husband be able to protect her from violence from others. I'm not strong. I can fight. I know some basics about protecting myself. But does that make me fit to protect others?

But then maybe it's wrong to think this way. I wouldn't call a husband less of a husband if he physically wasn't capable to protect his wife. I expect that he would try. But it's wrong to expect every man is a superman.
I really don't want to think in these narrow gender roles. And I especially don't like take up a male role, or my partner to. It's rediculously stereotyped and really beside the point. What I am really asking myself is, could I provide for another? And I think the answer is yes, in the future I can...but as a woman, it won't be easy.